sigh..it has been a crazy day of waiting and pain..

felt a stinging pain ydae afternoon in my left eye. tot it was the usual case. lack of slp and contacts were irritating my eye again. woke up this morning. and i cant even open my left eye. needed help. but no one was at home. sigh. got myself up. rinse my left eye with eye mo. water. tried dripping eye drops too. but it didnt help. decided not to go to camp and went to polyclinic instead. was amazed how i was actually able to drive with only one eye. yah. waited for an hour before i saw the doc. he told me there's sth wrong with my left cornea. he doesnt know how to deal with it. so he referred me to A&E at NUH cuz he said its very serious. okae. started to panic.

drove all the way to NUH with onli one eye again. dangerous. but no choice. reached there. gave my referral letter and they warded me in the hospital. my goodness. havent slept on a hospital bed for ages. not since i was 7 or sth. waited for hours again. left eye jus wouldnt stop hurting. and the doctors jus wouldnt come. waited 2 hours before a doc finally came. and after 1 minute of examining he left. nurse tell me to wait for another hour before there's a free slot for appointment with the eye specialist. so there i went lookin for food. but being alone in a crowded food court isnt the best thing to ask for. decided not to eat. skipped breakfast. skipped lunch. went back to my restin area. and prayed hard for time to pass.

finally it was 2 and i saw the eye specialist. but i was totally freaked out by the guy who was with me. he had bandages on his right eye and his arms and hands. and there was like blood all over his pants. pretty horrible sight. everytime i looked at him it seems to me that his eye dropped out or sth. eeewww. it didnt help to make me feel any better. waited for my turn and saw the doc finally. i was diagnosed with cornea ulcer. he said its very serious. and that i need to be warded for the night. he extracted part of my cornea for experiment. pretty painful. tried askin him again if i reali had to stay in hospital for the night. he said i could go home. but i hafta promise i can take care of myself. so here i am at home. but its gonna be a long night. cant figure a way i can slp when i hafta drip antibiotics into my left eye every half an hour for the next one week. i duno how im gonna survive. and it sucks that no one is around to take care of me. sigh. life sucks. but thankfully i have MC for the next 4 days. jus hope my eye will get well soon. the last thing i wan is an eye op now. sigh.

had to wait again to collect my medicine. thankfully my cousin came down to accompany me. she's working in the childrens' ward upstairs. and she happened to be free. thanks to her if not i would have been bored to death waiting for another hour for my medicine. i seriously tink spore hospitals are super inefficient. cant they jus do sth abt the waiting time?! goodness.

speaking of happier things. watched ray on saturday. inspirational movie. and nice songs to go along. its the kind of movies which makes pple think alot. well. at least it made me tink alot.

met kim on sundae night after her work. watch spanglish. haha. stupid show. funny tho. but somehow the women inside the show were all pretty attractive. went for supper after the movie at fishermen's village but the weather wasnt exactly kind. was raining so we kinda got a little drenched. had a nice supper tho with good company. enjoyable. definitely lifted my spirits up. =) we watched lemony snicket's last night too. like finally. after so long. haha. tho my eye was hurting real bad last night. the good company made it alot more bearable than it could have been. =) thanks girl for sparing the time. reali appreciate it. hugss. =)

having another appointment tml at 10 at NUH. sigh. hope it isnt another cornea extractin session again. i had enough of pain suffered lately. its reali enough. sigh. home alone in an empty house isnt helpin much either. sigh. jus wished there was somebody around.